Fangirl's rants

bwc_baby @ 2008-09-26T18:52:00

2008-09-26T23:51:11Z

Ok this guy goes to my university...and I think he looks a bit like Marcus Flint....tell me if I'm crazy.

mental dripings

2008-08-20T01:55:29Z

I just got back from a freshmen dinner thing cuz..well it was free food. But there where a bunch of upper classmen there too.
So I was chatting and stuff.
When I see my big! Really excited go to see her get a big hug and a stuff., then she and I part to go eat then we would meet up later.
So I go find her and she is acting happy to see me but not like "OMG little I've missed you and haven't seen you in 2 months" but more like you've been gone a week.
OK I can handle that, but then she acts like she doesn't want me near her...I'm confused...isn't your big the one you go to when you need to talk...WTF..maybe I'm just like reading too much into something.

I'm just going to chill and not leave my room...cuz I don't feel like going up and down 6 flights of stairs

bwc_baby @ 2008-08-16T10:17:00

2008-08-16T15:15:31Z

According to Moe, our bus driver, we have traveled 4,587ish miles. 22 States. 96 hours of driving time. 36 hours of stop time - him waiting on us lol. 10 seminaries. That is crazy that we accomplished all of that in 12 days.

I am so tired, but I'm really thinking about what this means for me. How my call from God has gotten more defined more in tune with my passions and dreams.

It's a lot to process.

bwc_baby @ 2008-08-06T22:47:00

2008-08-07T03:53:54Z

So We've been on the road for a while. Going kinda crazy...kinda ready to smack ppl who can't be quiet when I'm trying to sleep. But for most of the time we are just having a blast.
So far the only school that I didn't like at all was United. They weren't really into us, and the building sucked. Plus It was hunted...I saw the gost of a little girl, then found out the place use to be a Jewish community center...with a pool..so great dead kids.
MTHCO was pretty frickin' sweet and has been the most presbyterian friendly so far.

So I'm going to go cuz...I'm baked..
I love saintsalieri, Aubrey and Christian...yeah fun time at Aubrey's place.

bwc_baby @ 2008-08-04T22:51:00

2008-08-05T03:49:24Z

So we left Kansas City at 9 a.m. and drove until 7:30 p.m. to get to Chicago.
We had real Chicago deep dish pizza and I am stuffed! It was like an inch thick so good.
We get to the dorms and stuff and decide to go walking cuz Lake Michigan is like a block from the school.
We get there and are about there for maybe 2 minutes when the frickin’ police show up and tell us the LAKE CLOSES AT 10! How does a lake close? It is still lake-ing! So we are going to try and show up for sunrise.
I'm having a good time on our whirlwind seminary trip. In the last 4 days I've been in 6 states and seen 3 schools.
So far Garrett in Chicago has been the best. I pasted a real White Castle but I wasn't able to get a pic.
Right now we are in Trotwood Ohio at United but I’m already not liking it here, they don’t even have dorms for us, you are camping in the halls…really? They haven’t even taking us to eat or anything.

bwc_baby @ 2008-08-03T08:29:00

2008-08-03T13:38:58Z

I forgot to post this sooner.
I'm going arcoss the country looking at grad schools. with Thankfully, my best friend saintsalieri
Today we are on our way to Chicago. From Kansas City...that's a 9 hour drive...I may go insane.

Day one of the trip: We left around 7:00 this morning. The bus is really cool. There are only 13 of us in it. Which rocks and our bus driver is a sweet man named Mo.

Our travels were pretty smooth. We made it to Kansas City by 2:00. We got a tour of our first seminary, St. Paul's was really nice and will be where I go if mom gets sicker, cuz I can spend 3 years at OCU and only have to leave Oklahoma for a year.

So far, everyone on the trip is amazing. It's been nice to get away. St. Paul's took us out to the Cheesecake Factory. it was my first time there. It was really cool. We then walked around downtown, which would have been amazing if it hadn't been so fuckin hot! Someone told us that it was the hottest day so far this summer. I died..

But saintsalieri let me turn the A/C in our room to as cold as I wanted...Sweet gal.

ok...need to get my ass going!

bwc_baby @ 2008-07-15T15:06:00

2008-07-15T20:07:00Z

Ok my mom and I are random and VERY bored…we were thinking of kids names….I swear I’m not preggers

Girls:
1. Naomi Rose (
2. Nilah
3. Amalthea (Mom hated this one…but I like it…Thea for short)
4. Nora
5. Delilah
6. Arwen

Boys:
1. Benji Hok (yes son you were named for a swing dancer and a break dancer)
2. Tristan
3. Balian
4. Titus
5. Luke
6. Blake
7. Derek

If you think of any others I might like…go ahead post some

bwc_baby @ 2008-07-05T11:35:00

2008-07-05T16:36:31Z

I have another list of random observations

1. My dog smells like Doritos chips…and I kinda like it

2. My mother doesn’t shut up very much

3. My plot bunnies only come when I’m too tried to write

4. St. S, is the only person I know in real life that knows about my LJ

5. James McAvoy makes a very sexy faun, which isn’t good for anyone

6. I find Skander Keynes very hot, but shouldn't as he is only 16...I would go to jail for that.

7. I’m a light-weight when it comes to alcohol, Two Bacardi slivers get me buzzed anymore than that I’m drunk

8. BBQ chips + ranch dip = Lunch

9. My really hot pen pal is coming back this summer. He didn’t tell me, I found out though my aunt.
Now I think I don’t want to see him becuz I’ve gained weight since I’ve seen him last.

10. When my sis starts her period she is a righteous bitch for about 3 days, then just a regular bitch till she’s done.

11. I however just get a bit pissy then become a sobbing mess. Know like crying at ads.

bwc_baby @ 2008-05-26T08:17:00

2008-05-26T13:20:18Z

I am going to be needing a beta soon, I'm writing a fic for my friend's birthday.
I need someone the knows the movie Amadeus, it's a slash, I would need a grammar, spelling and flow check.

bwc_baby @ 2008-05-14T21:44:00

2008-05-15T02:46:25Z

I've been watching the movie slap shot and now have been wondering if there were any slash on this movie...if you find any let me know!

bwc_baby @ 2008-04-30T14:02:00

2008-04-30T19:13:29Z

Ok you guys know my editor, the one I like, I wrote him tell him how I felt

"On 4/26/08 2:53 AM, Linda wrote:

Nathan,

I need to tell you something before you graduate.

I've liked you more than a friend for a while now. I'm sure you've noticed.

I felt I should tell you because if I didn't I would always think "what if?" and I don't want to go through that.
I know that there is a chance that you don't like me back the same way I do you, but I wanted to tell you because I had to take a chance.

Whether you like me "romantically" or not, I want you know that I will always be here for you as a friend. And thank you for teaching me so much in the newsroom. I just want to let you know how much I appreciate you as a friend and maybe you see me more than just that.

Linda"

I had 3 people help me with this. This was Friday night.
Saturday = nothing
Sunday = awkward run in at work where he ignored me and left.
Monday = working awkwardly together on paper corrections.
Monday night = staff party with him making sure not to sit near me and only talked to me when he had to.
But I won "staffer of the year"! so pretty cool and that means he voted for me ^_^
Tuesday = had to get help from him for my class...

Tuesday night

"Linda,

While I’m very flattered, I do not feel the same way.

However, it does mean so much to me to know that I’ve been able to be friend to you and help you in the newsroom. I too have enjoyed getting to know you this year and see you grow in the newsroom. I look forward to seeing what the future has in store for you as you start your college career.

Nathan"

I'm glad he did this nicely, but I wish he would have done it sooner so I had time to hide in my room and cry.
I can finally read that without crying so I'm guessing that's a step in the right direction...
but now my brain keeps telling me to hit on any guy and make him jealous ...it won't work but my brain never listens

bwc_baby @ 2008-04-23T01:32:00

2008-04-23T06:34:19Z

As most of you know, my mother has cancer. We just got the results as to tumor size and locations. We don't know how aggressive it is, but time (and more tests) will tell. This is what we know so far:
* There is a golf ball-sized tumor in her right lung, on the front side of the sac, just behind a rib
* She has the lung function of someone with only 1 lung
* She is not a candidate for surgery due to her oxygen dependence and general weak condition (not to mention they don't want to cut out a lobe of her lung with her lung function being so low)
* She has another smaller tumor on the lymph nodes in her chest
* Due to her lung function, tumor positions, and the fact that a surgeon won't touch her, she is going to need radiation therapy
* The best radiation therapy for her is an image-guided form that would spare her some more healthy tissue than traditional radiation
* Said imaged radiation is not available in Lawton, so she is going to have to travel to and from Oklahoma City for her treatment
* Oxygen does not travel well
* My mother never traveled well BEFORE she was this sick
* My sister’s work schedule most likely won't allow her to go with mom
* This one is just stuck in here to see if you're still reading this
* She is thoroughly enjoying the doctor telling her to eat lots and lots of protein (to build back healthy cells after the radiation destroys bad and good cells) to taunt my sister while eating large steaks, fish, and eggs and making my sister cook them, (my sis is vegan)

things have gotten better, things have gotten worse

2008-03-12T00:07:11Z

I'm going to go by categories so I won't confuse anyone.

WORK:
Pretty much a week after I posted my last entry. Someone else in the newsroom got really pissed that those things had been said to me that they went to our supervisor and chewed them out.
And a bunch of other people said it was the other person not me and they would rather have me then them. So I guess I was wrong, I had a lot of people fighting for me.
Then I've won "Staffer of the Week" for two weeks in a row!! That's 10 hours of pay I don't have to do!

FAMILY:
I learned last week, that my mother has cancer. She has two spots in her left lung and one in her right and one in her thyroid.
We are going at this from a positive angle, people beet cancer every day, even one of my editors is a cancer servitor. So if we just trust in God we can get though this.
I'm knitting her a hat so she has one for chemo

SCHOOL:
I've been doing good in my classes, I fell behind a bit after I found out about my mom.
But all my teachers have been really great and helpful and they just want to make sure I'm ready to take on all this.
Oh yeah on my Editing mid-term I got a 100!!!!! I've never done that on this teachers test! I almost peed my pants!

FRIENDS:
WOW, the weekend I was gone Micheal made Shannon cry, and Miriah left with her. Then Micheal started acting pissy and all sorts of junk and now we aren't friends with him anymore.
We all realized what a bad person he was to be around. I've really never felt happier.
I am kinda...I guess mad comes the closest to what I am feeling. That He has made me cry before and no one got that upset for me. I don't know, I just feel like maybe they didn't realize how hurt I really was, so they figured it would blow over. I also think because in was so early in the semester people just wrote it off as we both we just trying to adjust and the like, when really it was a fundamental problem of him being an asshole.

But I've seen who my true friends are though the ordeal of my mom. The ones that really care have been there to cheer me up and to help me along the way. And of course let me cry all over them. Shelby, Carrie, Zack, Miriah, Shannon, Alaina, Natalie have been really there for me.
I'm really blessed.

Ok I have to get ready for my Kappa Phi meeting.

LOVE YOU ALL!!!

bitching and moaning

2008-01-28T07:01:19Z

this isn't a really important post...feel free to skip

I love my job on Stu Pubs, some of the funnest times. I've learned a lot and really like the field.
However, some of the people on staff think I'm too abrasive. Or they don't get my humor and think I'm a mean, hateful person, but y'all know I'm not.
My editor knows my personality and is friends with me and she said some people were uncomfortable with me. I have NEVER been told I made someone uncomfortable...usually it's the complete opposite so many people have told me this year alone that I made them feel at home on campus because I always take the time to get to know them....maybe the people on staff don't want to get to know me....I'm just going to keep my mouth shut and do my job.

And, I've been feeling a little under-valued. They say I'm important but I just don't feel it. We do the "saffer of the week or month" and I have never gotten it....I don't think I've even been nominated.
Both Nathan and Alaina have given me work that was more for an editor, and I did it, Nathan even put on my Evaluation sheet that I always go above and beyond what is asked of me....so why don't I get some fucking credit?

I am alive!

2007-11-13T06:03:37Z

I'm so sorry y'all, college kicked my butt for a bit but I won! haha I've been working a lot on the yearbook, and all that.
My editor is having to step down as editor-in-chief, but not for anything bad! He was hired by News 9 to redo the web site!!! so he is just going to do associate editor. Not too bad I will get to see him almost everyday, so I'm happy.

My sorority is having Big/Lil' week, and I find out my big tomorrow!!!

random thought...and concern

2007-09-28T17:55:30Z

Ok I keep having sex dreams about my editor....like really graphic ones...and I am with him constantly. I mean I will work with him up to at least 5 hours everyday.
And now when I look at him..I see THAT...and I'm like turning red and shit....What the fuck?!?

bwc_baby @ 2007-09-21T16:27:00

2007-09-21T21:33:52Z

omg I'm so sorry guys, I've been so busy, and now I'm uber sick, so I might be a bit out of it while I wriet this...so fell free to laugh at me!
My friend and I got in to a fight yestrday, he said i had been a bitch to him all day and he wasn't going to take it any more, I was SO confused, cuz I had no idea how I had been mean to him.
If I want to be mean to someone they WILL know it, I just don't get what his prob is...he did this in fucking Jr. High people...grown the fuck up!

But then I got some good news I got a scholarship to a conference in March! Everything is paid! woot, all I'll need to spending money ^_^

I'm sorry I went into rant mode. but this is they only place where some of my other friends don't know about.

I LOVE YOU ALL

bwc_baby @ 2007-08-19T16:31:00

2007-08-19T21:31:34Z

I finally have my flipin laptop!!!!!!!!!!
thank the Lord...the main hall one is always got some one on it and I don't feel ok using them cuz like it can track you O_o
I've been having a great time getting to know everyone and hanging out. I've met some really great ppl here and everyone is so nice.
we've had our formal introduction to the school with a church service this morning.
I feel so odd, now I'm being treated like an adult.......I don't know how I like that

I'm sorry if I haven't written anyone back recently we've just been doing all sorts of stuff!

bwc_baby @ 2007-08-15T08:15:00

2007-08-15T13:18:33Z

I'm not dead...I have been packing moving and waitting on my new laptop....I'm using one of my roommates computers.
I love you all, I'll try to get some pics of my dorm room up here ^_^

bwc_baby @ 2007-07-11T09:18:00

2007-07-11T14:19:12Z

I get to have a party!! WOOT!! it's like a week after my b-day..but who gives a shit! YAY!!!

bwc_baby @ 2007-07-05T11:21:00

2007-07-05T16:22:29Z

ZOMG!! my sister total got hit with fireworks! It was a small fountain and we lit it, it tipped one way and hit the fence then pointed directly at us!!

I do not panic well...and kinda froze, while Mom and Susan tried to push me to move, one of the shots hit Susan in the face.......go see the pics.
blog.myspace.com/snackar

on a more depressing note…I may not have a party...or it will just be VERY late...
but feel free to send me gift...I have wishlists every where..
(Most of these will be under my name “Linda Provost“)
www.torrid.com
www.hottopic.com
(both under bungie_pikachu@hotmail.com)

or amazon.com (under dont_wer_milk@yahoo.com)

And if you can BUY USED, I mean it’s the same thing…really...please…go for used..

ok I was bored

2007-06-18T07:25:17Z

and I did a search to see if BWOC came out on DVD...I found it!
http://www.allmyfavoriteshows.com/movie/action/Big_Wolf_On_Campus.html
I just wish I had the money
does anyone know if this is a fan copy or the real thing?

*edit*
Is fan copies..
but I found this if you haven't already signed
http://www.gopetition.co.uk/petitions/put-big-wolf-on-campus-on-dvd.html

Ten ways to fix the NHL

2007-06-15T20:18:15Z

10. Market the players

These guys are the most articulate, entertaining and accessible athletes in pro sports yet as soon as one of them says something remotely controversial, Bettman and his minions rush to silence them. Build some commercials around them. Increase their image. The league knows how much the players can sell the game, but too many owners feel that if they market the player, then his salary demands would increase accordingly. That's probably true but it's time to stop worrying about such matters.

9. Increase the net size

This one is sure to encounter serious opposition, but the league has to do something about the lack of scoring. Don't change the shape. That's too radical. But a slightly larger net with the same configuration would make goalies do what they used to do before they and their pads became so much larger. They'll have to move post to post. They'll no longer be able to block the entire lower quarter of the net simply by dropping to their knees. To attract a larger audience, scoring has to increase, and this is the easiest way to do it.

8. Recognize the impact of gambling

Bettman abhors gambling and does everything he can to distance the game from it. But would the NFL have the popularity it enjoys if it weren't for gambling? Bettman doesn't realize that people in hockey pools, or people who have bet even small amounts on games, are much more likely to add to TV ratings than those who don't have a financial stake in the outcome. The league should do everything it can to encourage pools as well as making sure that gamblers get accurate, up-to-date injury information.

7. Get rid of the instigator rule

For one thing, there would be a reduction in cheap shots if a player knows he has to answer for his indiscretions. It might result in more fights, which wouldn't do any harm to hockey's popularity, but more likely, it would result in fewer injuries to key players. As a corollary, the league should not be quite so stringent in the area of excusing players from fighting majors. In other words, if a player takes a cheap shot, then decides to turtle when retaliation comes, give him a fighting major anyway.

6. Fix the ice

This one is difficult to impose, but it's crucial. The skills that today's players possess is phenomenal, but too often, they are negated by bad ice. The problem tends to be at its worst at the most important time of the season — in the playoffs when the warm weather is arriving. The league should be funding university research that can discover ways to keep the ice hard and chip-free; it should demand top quality ice plants in every building; and it should penalize teams which stage various ice-destroying shows hours before Stanley Cup games.

5. Get rid of composite sticks

The NHL got itself into this mess in its usual fashion when it took a lackadaisical approach to the arrival of aluminum sticks. Now, most players are using the composite sticks and coaches hate them. Although they produce a wicked shot, they're not so good when it comes to receiving passes. Pucks that should be under control are bouncing around somewhere near the blade and the extra split second required to calm the puck often prevents the next pass. It's one of the reasons there are so many blocked shots.

4. Continue the officiating fine-tuning

For some reason, the NHL doesn't like to make moves. Far too many league officials say, "We don't want to be constantly changing the game. It's pretty good as it is." Sure it is. That's why the Stanley Cup final produced the lowest prime-time ratings in NBC's history. It is crucial to the sport that the great players be allowed to show their skills, and although many moves have been made in this direction, the officiating decisions — mandated from above — still leave a lot to be desired. It's a long path but stay the course.

3. Restructure the season

Training camps are a throwback to the days when players spent the summer delivering beer — or drinking it. Nowadays, they come to camp in excellent condition. As a result, training camps could be shortened and the season could start earlier, which would in turn allow an earlier finish. Most people don't want to be watching hockey in June. In the playoffs, force teams to either make their building available when the results call for it or lose the home-ice advantage, thereby putting an end to these week-long delays between series.

2. Get back on TV

Even if it takes buying out the remaining year of the Versus deal, the NHL has to get itself onto a major network as soon as possible. Because of the insipid game that Bettman had foisted upon the fans — low-scoring, restraint-dominated affairs — the NHL was going to have its product relegated to ESPN2 after the lockout. But even that had to be better than Versus which is simply not available in most venues. Furthermore, hockey highlights would have been shown on ESPN and at the moment, with very rare exceptions, that's not the case.

1. Fire Gary Bettman

Most of the problems that plague the game are the result of decisions — or non-decisions — made by Bettman. His lack of imagination in labor conflicts caused two devastating lockouts. The first, in 1994, destroyed the promising future that awaited the NHL as a byproduct of the New York Rangers' Stanley Cup victory. The second, 10 years later, destroyed most remaining American interest in the league. Bettman has done an excellent job for a dozen or so investors, but for the rest of the league and for the game itself, he has been a disaster.

from: http://msn.foxsports.com/nhl/story/6909422?MSNHPHCP>1=10136

I will hate mondays

2007-06-12T16:08:29Z

Monday:
US history Walker Center 8-8:50am
News and reporting Walker Center 9-9:50am
Religion Orientation Chapel 12-1pm
Composition I Loeffer 1:30-2:20pm
Intro to world Rel Chapel 2:30-3:45pm

Tuesday:
Art and Human Values Walker Center 2:30-3:45

Wednesday:
Us history
News
Comp
Intro to rel

Thursday:
Values

Friday:
Us history
News
Comp

_____________Stupid LJ..it won't let me reply to the comments________

I write too much and they’re RANDOM things..

2007-06-10T05:29:27Z

I have found that veggie burgers are good with bacon

It feels good to rub between your toes

Any time you think you look like crap...you end up talking to hot guys for some reason.

When looking up the show “Bones” on LiveJournal.com you end up at anoxic help sites…and not “Getting over it” but helping you hide it and shite.

Uncles do not want to know if you think the guy in the next car is hot…now they want to kill said male before he might touch you.

It’s funny when people get hit for driving like a jackass

When you take an antihistamine at four in the morning it’s hard to wake at 8 to go to work. And even if you get there you’re a zombie

Interns are grossly incompetent when it involves blood pressure medication.

My mother complains a lot

I think they stopped making berries and cream Dr. Pepper…this makes me sad…

The admin of kyle_xy_fic is rude..I didn't know I posted sometimes against the rules...instead of politely asking me to take it down he posts a non-comment-able post about how "there are rule here"